I grew up in a
Christian family where Bible is our main source of daily topics during our meal
time. Growing up in the ministry is not easy. People will look unto you and
even check every action you are going to do.
My parents are Christian and so we were born as is. I thought that I was
already saved during that time until the Lord spoke to me in His still small
voice way back when I was in Grade 6, June 5, 1994 at exactly 7pm, it was
raining then, I was lying on my bed waiting for our dinner while listening to
702 DZAS’ program PAPURI. I love music and I enjoyed listening to PAPURI music.
Then this announcer named Jungee Marcelo played a song called “TSUPER NG
BUHAY”. The melody is satiric and like novelty sound, then while listening,
there was this line in the song…”Sya ang tsuper ng buhay, dito ka na sumakay,
gasolina’y panghabambuhay…then I was singing the song when tears rolled down my
eyes, yes, I cried upon listening to that song. I don’t know why but at that
moment, there was a big emptiness in my heart and that I am longing for more of
Jesus. Then before ending the radio program, the disc jockey will pray and
minister to the listener, so, when Sir Jungee prayed for acceptance, I followed
him.
The next day, I
went to school. I studied in a Catholic school where every Monday will have a
rosary prayer, that day I was assigned to pray the rosary. Being a Christian, I
felt awkward. I even told my principal that praying a rosary like a repeat
scripted prayer is not biblical, well; definitely, I was sent to a guidance
office and asked my parents to come. But I was firm to my decision that I won’t
pray the rosary anymore. But since I was running for Valedictorian that time,
they pardoned me to my actions and exempted me in praying.
Years passed, I
grew up in ministry where I became a leader, and then some big things have
twisted my faith. I became bold in Christ and even went to several campuses to
minister.
I was in college when I radically got involved in a
big Christian Youth Ministry, the Jesus
Revolution, I boldly declaring God’s Lordship and minister to many young
generations. Then right after my graduation in college, God made me to decide
the crucial decision to make.
While working, I
met someone, felt in loved with this man of God. He was a Christian; so definitely,
I didn’t fail the heart of God. But we started to be unhappy and struggling
every day, until I asked God about it. We broke up. How heartbreak can lead to
overeating. It's the nature of hearts to break. It's in their job description.
When a heart is doing what it's supposed to be doing, it holds nothing back.
And sometimes it gets broken.
Yes, pain is
such a big word but after that painful heartbreak, another trial came. August
2012, I was diagnosed of having abnormal
blood count plus a respiratory problem which causes me to always in the hospital.
Then, I asked
God, why me Lord, I’ve been serving You and I even obey You? But God reminded
me His words and promises. I cried in prayer and laying it all to Him and
entrust everything. The moment I have decided to turn back to my first love, I
made Him as my captain, as my Savior and Lord of my life. January 2014 when I
received the news from my doctor that my blood count is now normal. When they
rechecked it thrice, it was all cleared and normal.
But prior to
that, I always have a nocturnal job doing some music stuff at night especially
during gig, then I realized I need to let go that passion in music and started
to live a healthy lifestyle. Since then, I became healthier than before. But
still the heart for music is always there. But I need to obey what my master
and Lord Jesus wants me to do.
February 2014,
God opened the door for me in music. Not a nocturnal lifestyle of a musician
but He gave me the chance to make my own music and start a career in
songwriting. Though I’m not yet famous, I believe that God is doing something
great in my life, as long as I submit to Him.
For me, LORDSHIP
means to fully obeying the master of our lives. If we confess Jesus is Lord,
therefore we should also know how to submit to Him no matter what happen,
because He knows our heart, He will have the best plans for us once we call Him
as our Lord and Savior. His plans are greater than ours.
God wants us to
trust His heart; God wants us to depend on Him as our strength and refuge alone
and not into our own. During our painful and hard times, when we are so empty
that is when we see God’s fullness because God is the only one who can restore
us. “God uses our brokenness for His masterpiece.”
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